DISAPPOINTMENTS

 (a photo saying, "NO to DISAPPOINTMENTS")

Ok that's a very negative and difficult topic to discuss since what i want for a blog is blessings flowing from God Above... through me... to you (readers).

Let's define it then. Uhm, disappointment is an act of selfishness flowed from being materialistic at times and not understanding a thing or two. Ok, you cannot find that one in your dictionary because it came from a selfish feeling in me. 

Help me, LOrd!

Ok here's the thing. I would like to look at the mirror (ok, looking now) and asked my self one simple thing, "How are you, Leigh?"...the devil will answer, "Disappointed!".....Ouch, ouch, ouch. Well, i am. Ok sorry i blamed the devil for my disappointments. Maybe it's not really the devil who answered but the "Me_MONSTER" within me.

I am disappointed because i feel alone.

The past couple of days are real happy ones. But days will not always be a happy days. That's why we have a thing called "Balance" because everything should be fair and balance.

My disappointments came from a dream that maybe will remain a dream. I am trying to wake myself up and try to understand things but to my surprise, i was surrounded with sadness and frustrations and feeling of being left behind... without wings.

I cried and is crying. My disappointment led me to so many question. I don't wanna judge and i will remain standing in my belief of what "God's will" is. God has perfect time to reveal everything. God has perfect choice. God, without a doubt, knows what's better and what's best. I try not to be blinded by the truth the Lord s revealing unto me. I wanted to follow Him and seek Him more and more each day.

Lord, i don't wanna rebel on my disappointments. Help me endure and overcome it.

Cover me , Lord and keep me protected. I don't wanna sway in the faith but to cling unto it.

Honey told me yesterday, "FAITH IS STRONG". Lord, You are stronger.

If my pride caused my disappointments, help me understand Your will and your purpose for everything.

Keep me strong, not on my wings but on my knees. Help me to bow down and not to soar on my pride.

Lord, You are my wings...the wind beneath my wings. Now, i would like to soar in humility...to soar with You.

It just reminded me of the song, "Wind Beneath My Wings" that i always love singing.

Here's the LYRICS:

It must have been cold there in my shadow,
To never have sunlight on Your face.
You were content to let me shine, that's Your way.
You always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory,
While You were the one with all the strength.
A beautiful face without a name for so long.
A beautiful smile to hide the pain.

Did you ever know that You're my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
'cause You are the wind beneath my wings.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I've got it all here in my heart.
I want You to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without You.

I AM NOTHING...I AM DEFINITELY NOTHING...I AM ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.....WITHOUT JESUS, the wind beneath my wings....MY WINGS.

Here's a Bible Message for me...BUT if you (yes you) feel disppointed as some point of your life, here's something the Lord wanted us to know:

Psalm 22:5
They cried to you and were saved; in you they trusted and were not disappointed.

Isaiah 49:23
...Then you will know that I am the LORD; those who hope in me will not be disappointed."

Lesson Learned: 

Life is a series of disappointing views until we give our lives to the only One who can give it eternal meaning. Every other destination will leave you feeling hollow inside - until you're home - in the waiting arms of Jesus Christ.

IT IS FINISHED

It is always a good thing to stay silent after reading God's Word...feeling His presence, knowing that He's right there and then watching over you and listening to you.

After a year of being away from each other, we finally came to a point in our lives that we have to live together to share the love the Lord has given us. The long wait is FINISHED. Patience paid it all and it's all worth it. We have accomplished something because Jesus guides us all through out. He remained our strength, our song, the center of our life.

Michael and i have been together for seven days now. We're not yet married but praying for it. More things to do and learn.

My family has been so supportive of us. I owe them a lot. They love michael and accepted him in the family. I thank the Lord for giving me wonderful parents and siblings that cares for us all the way.

I received a daily devotion from my mail today and i would like to share it to all the readers out there, just in case you peeked through my blog page. BUt you can always subscribed to Pastor Greg Laurie's Daily Devotion through clicking this link.

Here's the Devotion for Today March 12, 2010, HAPPY READING. Be Blessed in Jesus!

Victory!

He canceled the record of the charges against us and took it away by nailing it to the cross. In this way, he disarmed the spiritual rulers and authorities. He shamed them publicly by his victory over them on the cross.
— Colossians 2:14


"Finished" is the word we use after a job is done. It is a word that says we don't need to work anymore, because it is done. "Finished" is also the word Jesus used from the cross. He said, "It is finished!" (John 19:30). In other words, "It is accomplished!"

The devil was soundly defeated at the cross of Calvary—and that is something he doesn't want us to know. Referring to His impending crucifixion, Jesus said, "The time for judging this world has come, when Satan, the ruler of this world, will be cast out." Through His death, Jesus destroyed the one who had the power of death, which is the devil. And when we put our faith in Jesus Christ, the stranglehold of Satan is broken. He cannot control us. We can rest in the finished work of Christ.

This means that when we face spiritual battles, we are not fighting for victory; we are fighting from it. We don't fight to get victory. We fight because it has already been obtained. We don't need to pray, "Lord, give me victory." Rather, we should pray, "Lord, I have victory, and I will live accordingly." As Romans 8:37 tells us, "Despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ."

We can win in the spiritual battle. We can overcome the enemy. I am not saying we will win every skirmish and every conflict, but I am saying we will win the war. I am not saying we never will sin and never will stumble, because we will. We all will. But we can win the battle overall, because we stand in the righteousness of Christ.

So when the devil tries to strike that fatal blow against you, it no doubt will be repelled, because you are standing right with God.

Counting The Days

Praise God!

Michael will be here on Saturday, March 6, 2010 --- terminal 1 NAIA.

I can still remember the first time he came for a visit. Mixed emotion hehe.

Just two days ago i finally told Michael something that keeps on echoing since day one, this phrase, "Honey, i knew i love you even before i've met you." Well not so unique haha, it's a song by westlife i guess but anyways, it's how i feel and how i know and believe. Michael smile and i just got his answer, something like, "i love you that's why i came for you".

Yippppeee...im going to blush more and more the next days i know but thanks be to God, i am ready. Smiling.

I pray the Lord keep Michael safe and give him a wonderful journey. And also pray that the Lord control the planes and the pilots and the engines as well as people boarding and that no accidents may happen. Praise God's Holy Name.

To anyone who read this blog, kindly consider us in your prayer.

Thank you and God bless everyone.